thoughts for tonight. I’m sitting here worshipping with music and as my thoughts are continually lifted higher, I’m thinking of how incredibly happy I am. I just feel so grateful. I’m grateful I know that even the best this world has to offer is nothing compared to what God has in store for us in heaven. think of how incredibly cruel it would be for God to force people who haven’t wanted to live for Him or accept Him in life to be with Him in heaven! Instead of forcing us, He’s given us the option to choose life..to choose Him. and I’m just reflecting on that and the incredible vision of my purpose that He gave me today. I mean..I’m just shocked at how much sense it makes. Literally everything I’ve ever done and everyone I’ve ever met as brought me to this point. And I’m so grateful for having a greater purpose than eating, drinking, sleeping, and hoping for the best. with Jesus, I have assurance of the best. I didn’t even mean to write all those things, but man, I’m just incredibly grateful 🌻and if you’re struggling with your purpose or you’re just unsure, this is from one I’m-not-always-happy-kid-at-heart straight to you: hold on. every puzzle piece will make sense soon…and you are here for a reason.
for the past few days, my go-to song has been “Traveling Light“.
I noticed that when I move further from God/don’t do His will, I start to get burdened down by insecurities.
I remember when I was little, my mom would wait till I got home to spank me if I hadn’t behaved that day. I started cutting to the chase: I wanted to know what to expect when I got home. I started asking her if I had been good before we even made it home. I thought it was some recent poor habit I’d developed but I’m realizing I’ve always wanted to know what lies ahead.
Verse & Prayer
this morning’s verse of the day is 2 Corinthians 3:17 –
“For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”
that verse got me thinking about freedom. this morning I prayed for a sign and I got it. I wanted to be free from thoughts that often blind me and weigh me down. I just longed for freedom.
and I’ve been working on just talking openly to God about things. so that’s what I did when I prayed today. the point of prayer is to seek God’s Spirit – to look for it, to submit to it. and I found out today that when I prayed, I truly found God’s Spirit…I found freedom.
on a morning call, God led me to focus on the story of the thief on the cross. I love how Jesus doesn’t force the 2nd thief to go through a bunch of rituals and traditions. all He gives him is assurance. assurance that not only will he be remembered, but that he’s received the most important thing that there is to receive in life – paradise. he immediately receives an assurance of salvation.
remember when I said earlier that when I don’t do God’s will, I start to get really insecure? Jesus’ words to this undeserving criminal can assure us that when we cry out to Him, He will save us. He gives us assurance. assurance is the opposite of insecurity.
remember when I said earlier that I love to know the future/what lies ahead? Jesus’ words to this believer gave him an assurance of the future.
look at this verse from Romans 8:28:
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.”
“we know“. I like that. not “we think“.
knowing something is assurance, not insecurity. no matter what you’re afraid of/what your situation is/what your hopes and dreams are – you know that God will cause everything to work together for the good. so even if your life doesn’t look exactly the way you want it to look right now – be patient. our futures are set when we entrust our lives to Jesus. we don’t have to worry about any aspect of our lives – money, food, clothing, education, careers, etc. even the things we consider bad or negative events will be worked out for good because God chooses to do that for people who love Him.
that verse can give us so much freedom if we accept it and live it today.
freedom from fear and anxiety – especially about the future.
freedom from insecurity.
freedom from burdens.
freedom from sin.
ridiculously early mini devotional time ☺️
“Then ADONAI will be king over the whole world. On that day ADONAI will be the only one, and his name will be the only name.”
Z'kharyah (Zec) 14:9 CJB
this verse inspires me to make God the Lord/Master of my heart.
3 verses that talk about hearts stand out to me:
Psalm 119:36,Bend my heart toward your instructions and not toward selfish gain.
Proverbs 3:5-6,Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.
2 Thessalonians 3:5May the Lord lead your hearts into a full understanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ.
From these we see that we should allow God to direct our hearts, which makes sense because our hearts are deceitful (Jer. 17:9). And if our hearts are deceitful and we want to be live truthfully and not live a lie, then we need to ask God to lead our hearts.
what does this mean in real life (application/why should we care)? it means that we shouldn't be led by the emotions our hearts create: insecurity, guilt, fear, anger, distrust, etc. because we know our hearts lie and because Proverbs 23:7a tells us
"As a man thinks in his heart, so is he."
"As a man thinks in his heart, so is he."
Jesus also emphasizes this in Matthew 15:18-20.
We act out what we believe to be true and these beliefs come from our hearts. (if we believe we aren't valuable, then our actions will reflect our inner insecurity; if we believe we aren't forgiven, we'll drown in guilt; if we fear, it reflects our inner distrust of God & His plan & His promises to us; etc.)
let's allow God to be King 👑 over our hearts today so we can do His will and be led by the truth.
Song for meditation:
a few days ago, one of my exes called. there's so much that could be said about the past calling.
you know the usual – you're supposed to be asleep but you get that text that reads
hey, are you awake?
I guess old habits die hard. you know the usual – flirting, temptation, pictures. but this time it was unusual. this time it was different. this time it was one-sided. and I don't know what it was. maybe, like he described later, it was maturity. finally. or maybe I was just bored…
I'm just so tired of being that girl. always a bridesmaid, never a bride. only this time it's always a…I dunno…well I know what I want to say but it doesn't flow as nicely. it's just not nice to not make it to full-fledged wife status with all the frills it comes with. I don't want to settle for anything less than the dream – the vision- that I believe God has whispered to my heart. and something within me just stood up and firmly said no. and I'm not writing about this to brag. I'm typing this out because I've never felt this feeling before. I feel as confident as I felt before I was an awkward, pimply teenager. I feel confident. I feel strong.
I just said no. I feel like I just can't live the same way anymore. Like the Woman at the Well, I'm looking to experience something new. I'm tired of the same old water that continually leaves me thirsty. I really can't do this anymore. Within a few moments of texting and talking, I realized I had grown. I couldn't believe what I was saying. I couldn't believe what I was refusing. And it didn't mean I'd be perfect – no I definitely slip every day, but thank God for grace through Jesus. I don't have to do it all on my own. I don't have to constantly fear slipping up. I can live and walk confidently knowing that my sins are forgiven and that God will help me to live life loved and to live life new. I don't need to return to the past. It doesn't fill me up anymore. And the truth is, it never has.
"In your strength I can crush an army; with my God I can scale any wall." Psalm 18:29
I am stronger. I am goal-oriented. I am focused on the benefits ahead and not on momentary pleasure.
Could you please pray for me? Pray for deliverance. I'm praying for you too. Even if you're not there yet – have faith. You will be. This God I serve is so great. So powerful. His love is endless. There's nothing too embarrassing, dirty, or unworthy.
"Who redeems your life from destruction; who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies;"
"There's nothing too dirty
That You can't make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean
There's nothing too dirty
That You can't make worthy
You wash me in mercy
I am clean" – Natalie Grant, "Clean"
Thank God that we serve a God who's perfect; who loves us even though we don't deserve it. He fights our battles for us. We are never alone.
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” – Exodus 14:14
Sometimes we don't think of our bad habits as addictions. Or worse, we think that our bad habit is not as bad as his or hers. But praise God for deliverance. Have there been bad things that have happened this week? Life is filled with mess-ups, slip-ups, and breakups, but today let's make our minds up – we won't live life with a victim mindset. We can make it. We can overcome.
Today let's celebrate the progress we've made. Lets give credit where credit is due instead of focusing on our failures. Let's replace fear of failure with faith in the future: hope. A hope that can only be conceived through a continual trust in Jesus.
Let's say thank you to God as we recognize how far he's brought us from our past. And let's look forward to the future.